My primary cell culture technique is getting to the point where I actually have more cells than I had planned for – yay for more experiments!
Today I was told that I needed to ‘get power’, and this is apparently done by seizing it for yourself. Interesting…
My colleague and I are determined to finish our PhDs. Hers, by August, mine, by March. We both have plans, and are working as hard as we can to stick to/exceed them. This means that we are on pretty hectic lab schedules (between teaching, supervising students, conferences, and admin, of course). Last night we took a break and were social for a few hours, where we met a soon-to-be Masters student. Slowly we got onto the topic of doing a PhD and without prompting summaries of the experience started to flow (with a common theme of “It’s not what you expect”!):
You end up doing a lot that isn’t your project
This is not to say that you don’t benefit from ‘non-research’ activities – I think it is the lack of control you feel when you are a PhD student, and end up doing things that mean you can’t devote 24/7 to your project. You can be at the mercy of your supervisor (and their own to-do list), your departmental administration and the bureaucratic hoops that particularly come with working in a laboratory with no manager or research assistant, to list a specific example!
You are no-one’s first priority
We all know that a PhD is all about self-directed and independent learning. Yep, we get it. It is daunting, exciting, and draining all at the same time. And a lot of the time it feels as though you are responsible for absolutely everything. And a lot of the time that is true. Yes you have a supervisor (advisor), yes you have a panel, but at the end of the day you are not their first priority (they are their first priority). Your output might be a priority at times, but generally, there are 23 things on their priority list before you.
There are few support mechanisms
Every PhD student has a rough period in their candidature. One of my supervisors actually described his PhD as “second year shit” (I limited him to three words). You will always read this in PhD-experience articles, but you really have to live it to believe it. The self-direction and independence that is key to a PhD can also make you feel isolated. And when that happens, it really is up to you to help yourself – at least in my department, there are few genuine mechanisms (that will also retain confidentiality) to address student wellbeing. This is why peer networks, partners, and family are important during a PhD.
It is an emotional rollercoaster
This one is from my partner, when asked what he had observed so far in my PhD experience. He said, “Sometimes you have a really good weeks, but it just goes up and down, up and down”. I really can’t deny that! Experiments, interpersonal relationships, office politics, and many more factors (including the daunting career planning) make for a super fun, 3+ year-long rollercoaster.
For those of us doing a PhD, in our last year, it is a hard thing to sell to a bright-eyed, bushy-tailed undergraduate. So I wondered, why on Earth are we doing it then? If we can’t seem to promote the PhD experience positively, has it really been worthwhile? Yes, the critical thinking, independence, creativity, problem solving, and innovation are all worthwhile skills you gain throughout a PhD.
However, more importantly, from my current stand point, is actually getting through it all. “The best thesis is a finished thesis” is often quoted (and in my final year I kind of like it!). Finishing a PhD to me seems just as valuable as the papers you write, the presentations you give, the classes you teach. The “Dr” should be “IMI” (I Made It). Completing a PhD also demonstrates a different set of skills that have been developed, questioned, challenged, and (hopefully) retained: perseverance, resilience, and self-belief.
It has been, and will continue to be, a huge learning experience for myself. I am not sure if I could promote the experience specifically, but the outcomes have so far made me better, faster, stronger (to quote Daft Punk). So if you like a challenge, then sure, I can promote doing a PhD!
I was kind to myself this morning and relaxed my schedule a bit.. and then realised once I got home that I had forgotten to put an experiment! Back to the lab I go..
All I can say is that I am looking forward to having a break and socialising tomorrow evening, after this 14-hour day. Now I just have to get through tomorrow’s crazy schedule!
I have come up with another aim for a Goal for Balance (haven’t quite gotten to the goal part yet): I have enrolled in the edX “Inclusive leadership Training: leading with effective communication” and I really want to finish this one! I have previously enrolled in the ‘being an inclusive leader’ course which I thoroughly enjoyed but only finished half of it. I definitely see the value in these sorts of courses, it is just finding the time which is difficult. I will figure it out sometime this week, as I do want to make it a priority – development outside your “PhD bubble” is important too.
So my Goal for Balance this week is to work out at least four times – this is normally my ‘lazy’ level, but with weekends out of town and conflicting commitments my work out level has been much lower than I’d like.
Also, my experimental schedule this week really doesn’t allow for much other balance, something I hope to rectify next week!
Looking forward to planning my experiments this week, and my goals for balance – what an exciting life I lead!
Today I heard about an academic who makes a living from teaching because research funding isn’t stable. I didn’t know those existed!
Sanning electron microscope session, meeting with the Vice-Chancellor, primary brain dissection, and dress shopping for an engagement party this weekend – today had a lot of things that would feel nice and balanced if it weren’t so crazy!